Pretending To Be Gay

By Cody Croquet

Pretending to Be Gay starts when I need a friend to bail me out of an awkward situation, and my easiest option is to say I'm gay. It's supposed to be a quick, temporary fix.

The guy who agrees to play along is just helping me out at first. Except the more we lean into it, the more complicated it gets. Lines blur. Jokes go too far. Moments stop feeling fake and elicit some real feelings. I start noticing things I didn't expect to notice, and reacting in ways I couldn't explain.

What follows is a long stretch of emotional and sensual ups and downs that don't stay contained. My friendships shift and dynamics change. People start treating me differently, and I find my life changing in ways I would not have predicted, and I don't even know how much of it is an act anymore.

Across 18 chapters, Pretending to Be Gay tracks how a simple lie can spiral into something personal, confusing, and impossible to take back, and how pretending can start to feel real. Sometimes it takes a little white lie to find the truth.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0GCFBHSBG
• ISBN13: 9798241130112
• Release Date: December 2025
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 202 Pages
• Weight: 0.45 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.4" x 5.0" x 8.0"