All the People I had to Lose

By Meryam J.

All the People I Had to Lose is a collection about heartbreak that feels like withdrawal, the kind that keeps you awake at 3 a.m. It follows the quiet losses, the slow distancing, the unanswered messages, the "I'm busy," the excuses, and the silence that hurts more than anger.

Across two sections, Withdrawal and Recovery, this book explores what it means to be the girl who stayed when everyone else left. It holds the stories of people who promised forever and disappeared anyway.

These poems move through the fear of being ignored, the weight of one-sided friendships, the ache of almost lovers, and the loneliness that grows when your softness is taken for granted.

But this book is also about rebuilding. It is about the moment you finally say, "you don't live here anymore." It is about becoming the woman who no longer waits for the message, no longer apologizes for being too soft, and no longer carries the weight of people who never learned how to stay.

All the People I Had to Lose is for anyone who loved with both hands, broke quietly, healed slowly, and kept going anyway. It is a book for broken hearts, tired souls, and anyone learning to choose themselves after being chosen last.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0G43VJN3Y
• ISBN13: 9798276196862
• Release Date: November 2025
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 222 Pages
• Weight: 0.49 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.5" x 5.0" x 8.0"