The Leave I Grieve

By Alec John Belle

Staying sick is hard,
but recovery is even harder.

I try the best I can,
but sometimes wonder, "Why bother?"

I want to live my life,
but is there even a life to live?

I hold these grudges close,
but is it finally time to forgive?

I tell myself the answer's no,
but where else is there to go?

I want to befried my greatest foe,
but why would I, after all that I know?

Roman has spent the last two months in an eating disorder facility, and now he is finally free. When he returns home, he is expected to participate in a Partial Hospitalization Program with a virtual outpatient treatment team. However, when the PHP falls through, Roman discovers that life on the outside is not exactly what he hoped it would be. While everything around him reminds him of either Murat or Ezra, he knows that things can't go on the way they have been. Is Roman willing to let go of all the things that brought him to treatment in the first place? Or will he slowly begin to crumble, piece by piece by piece.

As the past finally catches up to him, Roman is forced to make a difficult choice, but he isn't sure which is harder: staying sick or allowing himself to recover.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0GYSKF4Q3
• ISBN13: 9798255314812
• Release Date: April 2026
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 322 Pages
• Weight: 0.82 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.7" x 5.5" x 8.5"