An inspiring story of childhood sexual abuse that fosters control issues that last nearly a lifetime and then culminate in cancer diagnosis and cure. An in depth and sometimes raw look into the human psyche and how our personal relationships can affect our lives in both positive and negative ways. Ultimately we are shown that we have or we can take back the control and triumph over adverse situations in our lives.
A Memoir to Remember
Published by Thriftbooks.com User , 16 years ago
No matter what you think of this book, you won't forget it. Rarely do you see such honesty from a writer about her own life. Because it is so filled with truthfulness, it becomes art. And that's not all that easy to do. What more can I say?
Silver Platter Girl
Published by Thriftbooks.com User , 16 years ago
The mind is a very powerful tool. Trish Kinney is living proof of that. The fact that she is living at all is proof. A survivor of breast cancer, a survivor of sexual abuse, Kinney's inner strength and belief in the power of healing was the key to her survival. Living in a sexually charged environment during her formative years eventually led Kinney to a place inside herself that was dark and painful. In her attempts to escape the pain, she placed herself in situations she was not proud of, knowing that what she was doing was not right, but going forward with the behavior anyway. "It was shocking that I was able to so completely separate my secret life and growing sexual conflicts from my real life and I tried very hard, usually with some success, to forget that this was exactly how my father did it for so many years" she said. Kinney's moment of realization came one day as she was watching the Oprah Winfrey show. "It was as though I suddenly stood up inside myself and instantly recognized the feelings that had swirled in me for so very long," she said. "I realized my father was a classic sexual abuser and even though he had never actually raped me, he had molested me, and probably my sister, and had raised us in a sexually charged environment." Kinney was always very connected to her feelings and was able to physically manifest her pain, even as a young child. When she was forced to leave her dog to go live in Turkey, she became ill. Only the reappearance of her beloved pet was able to cure her. As an adult, she continued to physically manifest her pain. After a particularly devastating encounter with James, a man she is in a long-term pseudo-sexual relationship with, she felt the beginning of the creation of her tumor. "I instantly begin to create my tumor, the mass that will encompass all my pain and suffering and abuse and lust and self-loathing," she said. "It is as if all of these emotions begin a rush to my breast." Kinney began a journey to self-awareness and forgiveness. She journaled her experiences. Her treatment included painful chemotherapy and a stem cell rescue, a type of bone marrow transplant. In her sterile room, which she called her cocoon, her compromised immune system was destroyed, along with her emotional trauma, and as her own donor, she made every cell in her body from scratch. She connected with only positive thoughts and people. By the time her treatment was complete; she had experienced a rebirth and began the process of building a new, healthy life. Many of the journal entries from this time period appear in her book. Kinney realized that in order to truly be well, she needed to remove her parents from her life. The minute she found out she had cancer; she removed James from her life as well. She filled the space he used to occupy with love and hope, peace and contentment. Kinney's story is an example of the power of the mind over the body. Her bravery in telling it touches the heart of the reade
Highly Recommended
Published by Thriftbooks.com User , 16 years ago
I would say this book is not for everyone but for those it is for, it's a powerful experience. Some will think it is only for those with a sexual abuse background, or any kind of abuse, or that it is best suited for those with a cancer history. But I think it has a higher purpose. The author's best characteristic is her unflinching honesty and its raw appeal. She seems to be saying that if you really want to "get well", you have to do the work which includes a good hard look at yourself and where you came from. She also seems to be saying that there is, at least in her case, a pretty literal connection between her sexual abuse experience and her powerful tumor that happens to appear in a very symbolic part of her body immediately following a traumatic event. Her journal based descriptions of her bone marrow transplant and its cleansing effect on her body and soul are devaastating but hopeful. Her story is strong and sure and she tells it with absolute conviction. As a memoir on a difficult subject, you can't do much better. You will be surprised how it applies to you, even if you are fortunate enough not to have abuse or cancer in your own history. We can all learn something about the human condition from this book.
One Hell of a Read
Published by Thriftbooks.com User , 16 years ago
This book is not for the faint of heart, but if you have the courage to experience a raw and unflinchingly honest story, it is well worth your time. It is definitely a page turner, hard to put down, well paced and styled. It will make you ponder your own past and its significance in your decision making and values. You don't have to be a sexual abuse or cancer survivor to appreciate the broader meaning of this book. I would be willing to bet that as soon as you finish it, and recover from that, you will know at least a dozen people who absolutely must read it. I recommend it wholeheartedly. You won't be sorry.
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