Look for Me in Rainbows

By Lee Evans

Look for Me in Rainbows is a raw and unflinching memoir chronicling Lee Evans's extraordinary journey from childhood innocence through harrowing trauma, addiction, and abuse, to self-discovery and transformation as a transgender man. Born into a working-class family in the 1950's, Lee's early years are filled with love and laughter - until the sudden death of his father shatters his world and plunges his family into poverty and grief.

Navigating a childhood and adolescence marked by domestic violence, sexual abuse, and relentless struggle, Lee finds solace in faith, the companionship of his siblings, and the power of imagination. Yet, the pain of loss, confusion over gender identity, and the weight of societal prejudice drive him to the depths of addiction, self-harm, and despair.

Through years of turmoil - including time in prison, psychiatric care, and the chaos of the 1970s and 1980s LGBT+ scene - Lee's story is one of survival against overwhelming odds. He endures not only personal trauma but also the failures of the systems meant to protect him. Despite this, Lee's resilience shines through: he becomes an activist, founds community support organisations, and discovers healing through creative expression, faith, and the enduring power of forgiveness.
As Lee journey's through detransition and retransition, he explores the complexities of identity, family, and faith, ultimately finding peace in self-acceptance and reconciliation.

Look for Me in Rainbows is more than a memoir of transition; it is a testament to the human spirit's capacity for endurance, transformation, and hope. Lee's journey is a beacon for anyone grappling with identity, trauma, or the search for belonging. With unflinching honesty and compassion, he offers readers not only a window into the realities of growing up trans in a hostile world, but also a powerful message: even in the darkest times, love, faith, and self-acceptance can lead to healing and new beginnings.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0GPHMRMV9
• ISBN13: 9798261848370
• Release Date: February 2026
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 362 Pages
• Weight: 1.07 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.8" x 6.0" x 9.0"