I could cope if my wife had just died but she hasn't. I shouldn't be here on my own having to do this. It is so sad. It is just so sad if I stop for a moment my normally rock solid stiff upper lip will begin to quiver but I mustn't show it. I must take a deep breath and smile and bounce around like a normal silly daddy and make sure we all have a good time, in fact such a good time that no difficult questions are asked and no one's heart begins to...