I told the Lord that I barely remember the girl I used to be, but I wanted her back. I wanted to be that girl again. I asked the Lord to help me unearth her, to uproot the things inside of me that tried to hide her. I wanted to be back, completely and wholly to that place of freedom that I had already had, but didn't know how to grasp onto. In order to do that, I had to come out of the past and go into my future. All that pain attached to my body had to be broken off.