Unveiled Lies, Unleashed Truths

By Shannon Stanton

PrefaceWithin the pages of this book, you will find that I am a recovering addict, a practicing liar and a lonesome loser. So now what ? I'm sitting here wrestling with writing this book about my life, not because I don't have the words, but because I want it to be my truth. I have learned (or have been taught) that honesty is not always the best policy.See, I don't know where you come from, but I come from a whole generation of alcoholics and addicts that bred on dishonesty, euphoria, secrets and oblivion.I was the 3rd of 4 children, an older sister and brother and a younger brother. My mother was always on the move, but she loved us with all she had. I was raised by alcoholic grandparents, molested by a neighbor and cousin, and raped on several occasions. My childhood had all the makings of a tear - jerking, heart felt award-winning movie, but that's not what this book is really about.See, I believe that we all have had our crosses to bear, and have walked through various types of pain, that this life often brings to us. Some more than others. I have come to the point in my life where I'm tired of being a victim to all of that. Being a victim has allowed me to justify some of the most ridiculous, unacceptable and dangerous behaviors that I have ever participated in.Now that I have developed a small amount of maturity and acceptance, the illusion of placing blame and being the victim of circumstance has been shattered. I now know that I was a willing participant, in some (if not all) of the unhealthy decisions I've made.My thing is, I have such a distorted perception of reality and myself. I have put unrealistic expectations on others and my attitude has been; YOU OWE ME !!!!! I expected others to supply not only my financial responsibilities, but also my emotional security. This attitude has gotten me one thing; ALONE.My truth is that I have been lied to for so long, I started believing the lies. I turned into a liar myself, and I lived a lie. But most of all, I deceived myself. My truth is, I don't think that I can be loved. Not in the way that I should be loved, because I, myself, don't have the capacity to love. I never learned what love really is. I believed (and believe) that it's through another person that I could fulfill, what could not be filled; because my vessel is broken. That vessel is my heart. My truth is that as long as I look for completion through another person, I will continue to be broken.The way I chose to ruin my life is the way I choose to draw my strength. In my childhood years, a number of unspeakable thing happened to me that were beyond my control. In my teenage years, I was exposed to peer - pressure and chose the pressure over the peer. In early adulthood, I made decisions based on the past that permanently altered my life. I also became an addict. It was all fun and games at first, but little did I know of the great tragedy that would follow. As far as I was concerned, I was going to get what I wanted by any means necessary, no matter who I hurt in the process. But most of all, I hurt myself. Lies. The ones I was taught. The ones I tell myself. The ones I choose to believe. They have all dictated my life in a way that is hard to explain. In most situations, I will honor the lie until I am in a position to where I have to tell the truth, at least part of it. We all know that part of the truth is a whole lie. All the lies in my life stem from one big lie; NOBODY LOVES ME.This is not a book about placing blame. It's about me owning my past and being responsible for the catastrophe that I created. It's about getting honest with me and claiming my own freedom. If I am strong enough to tell my truth, I know that I will be a better person. I'm sure that I will be amazed before I am halfway through.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: 0692335129
• ISBN13: 9780692335123
• Release Date: November 2014
• Publisher: Inner Child Press, Ltd.
• Length: 246 Pages
• Weight: 0.96 lbs.
• Dimensions: 9.0" x 0.6" x 6.0"