Untitled & Untethered (The Free Fall)

By: M. Grace

Writing has been the one consistent thing in my life. My escape from the chaos. When my life turned upside down and I started therapy at 14 I used writing to process the things I had been through. The events of my life that were uniquely mine. After nearly a decade of these writings accumulating in the notes app on my phone, I started sharing them with the people closest to me and one thing became very clear very quickly. I was not alone, and my writing was relatable to others in a way that both healed and broke my heart. My therapist had been saying for many years that I should explore the possibility of publishing a collection of these works, she claimed that they could help others who, much like myself, were feeling untethered in the process of their healing. I denied the possibility for many years, blaming imposter syndrome or various anxieties, until one day I had a breakthrough. I realized that if writing these pieces had benefited me this much, then maybe sharing them could help others. If one person out there who was suffering through the complicated process of reliving and healing their childhood traumas as an adult the same way I had and just needed to feel a little less alone, then I could certainly get over my own anxieties and help the best way I know how. I tried to sort my multitude of writings into neat sections, tried to form them into digestible chapters, and make this book as easy to read as possible. I realized almost immediately though, that this will never be easy to read. This book is the culmination of many nights filled with tears, days when I was so far away from myself that it felt as if I was looking at the world through frosted glass. These writings contain pieces of my soul, and I am choosing to share them with you. As you read you may find yourself seeking clarity, some sense of order to the madness that lives among these pages, when that happens I implore you to remember, if you are disoriented and emotional simply reading this book, imagine how it felt to live the life that enabled me to write it. In the beginning, you will find sections, though they are not organized or concise. They aren't even in chronological order. These sections, however, are there to provide some guidance as you journey through the pages. The pieces you will find listed under Dive will take you to new depths of awareness, they are the grittiest and most intense. In Love, you will find tiny traces of hope, though they are deeply interwoven among quite a lot of wreckage. I have loved and lost, and I can confidently say most days I would have rather never loved at all. Lastly, there is Death. In those few pages, you will find grief, loss, regret, and a feeling of emptiness that no words on any page can properly describe, though I have done my best. While they may seem disconnected at times, every word on every page contained here shares one thing in common. They are a living timeline of my life. I simply don't know how to write fiction. If you find yourself wishing while reading that these feelings and these events have been imagined rest assured, I wish they were as well. The truth is I have lived a life that from the outside looked fantastically idyllic at times, and terribly tragic at others. Though a few things have remained true throughout. I have lived this life well, I have survived, and I have a lot to say. Welcome to my free fall as I move forward into what hope will be a beautiful future.

• Format: Hardcover
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0CQRHJ1MW
• ISBN13: 9798872294801
• Release Date: December 2023
• Publisher: Independently published
• Length: 80 Pages
• Weight: 0.38 lbs.
• Dimensions: 9.2" x 0.4" x 6.2"