Trying to Be: A Collection

By John Haskell

With lyrical precision and aching intimacy, Trying to Be moves through history, memory, and the performance of ephemeral identity, as John Haskell assembles a quiet manifesto for how to think, how to live, and how to feel ourselves in our bodies.

Trying to Be is a book about presence, absence, and the intricate art of inhabiting one's own life. John Haskell--known for his genre-defying literary voice--moves through a series of intimate, sharply observed portraits: Francis Bacon and his doomed lover; Danny Kaye and his split personality; Sophia Loren; Diego Vel zquez; Ulrike Meinhof; and Yvonne Rainer's radical reinvention of what dance can be.

But this isn't cultural commentary as ornament. These figures mirror Haskell's own attempts to grapple with grief, estrangement, memory, and the failures of language. The result is a book that blurs the line between criticism and confession, art history and personal inventory. Whether recalling a botched friendship, a beloved mentor, or the carefully choreographed movement in a dance workshop, Haskell searches for new ways of becoming--through art, through awareness, through stories that have the quality of song. In prose that's quiet but unflinching, Trying to Be asks: What do we do with our bodies, our memories, and our regrets when even language feels exhausted? And what happens when, against the odds, we keep going?

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: 1573662143
• ISBN13: 9781573662147
• Release Date: October 2025
• Publisher: F2c
• Length: 124 Pages