To Seek and To Find: A Woman's' Journey of Hope and Healing

By Liz Gardner

You are supposed to be forgetting Liz would chastise herself with those words when she thought of her beautiful baby boy that she had so reluctantly relinquished for adoption in 1977. But she learned that forgetting was impossible as she rigorously guarded her secret over the years. Instead, she would sorrow and fear for her child, puzzled and confused about a God who seemed so silent and an institutional church so oblivious to the pain that relinquishment - an act endorsed by the church- would cause. When, twenty- six years later, Liz determined that she would search for her son, she found not only a God who flooded the brokenness of her heart with His love and truth, but support and help in surprising places. In To Seek and To Find, Liz documents the inner and outer journeys of a woman who relinquished a child during the era of closed adoption. She explores her life prior to her decision to relinquish and documents the emotional and spiritual affects that the lack of knowledge about her son's whereabouts and wellbeing had on her life. She also describes her inner process of spiritual and emotional healing, recounts the obstacles she encountered during her search for her child, and reinforces the commonality of her experiences with those of other relinquishing mothers by referencing research. This book joins the existing literature to reinforce the knowledge of how past adoption practices emotionally damaged relinquishing mothers, while offering hope by testifying how God is more than able restore the most hidden, broken areas of life.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: 1095940961
• ISBN13: 9781095940969
• Release Date: June 2019
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 196 Pages
• Weight: 0.59 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.4" x 6.0" x 9.0"