This Deep Desire

By Lisa Bowell

15...15 years and I've never fallen in love. It's normal right? I'm still young right?But my friends have all been in love. I have had small sparks with guys which fade out as fast a blink, been attracted to some handsome boys and even dated them. But love? No. I've never experienced that kind of privilege.

Love is clingy. It sticks to you like glue. Love is needy. It uses you like oxygen. Love is necessary. Because without it...I'm alone. So even if it's fake love, a burnt out spark or simply pure attraction, being loved isn't so bad. However why does it feel so disgusting to be loved way more than you love ? An icky feeling that makes me sick from the pit of my stomach... Now, I know I sound like a bitch. Maybe I am? Maybe I can't fall in love because I'm a bitch but the frustration that holds me hostage with no mercy is what makes me like this, why am I haunted by the solidarity of my heart? If only ice could be as cold as my heart, then maybe it would never melt...Maybe if my heart was as cold as the ice we put in our drinks, something warm could melt away the loveless prisoner that holds my heart hostage...

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: 1805105930
• ISBN13: 9781805105930
• Release Date: October 2023
• Publisher: Lisa Bowell
• Length: 252 Pages
• Weight: 0.75 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.5" x 6.0" x 9.0"