The Girl Who Never Got Written is a collection of poetry, prose & word art by Terri Lee-Shield
It is a collection of words that has flown from me and through me as I embarked on a healing journey. It has no professional form or study, simply words that landed on a page.
The Book
As the sentimental child in a northern family who seemed to never ask the questions I was born wondering. I could never find the words I needed to express myself well. I didn't have the knowledge or the skill. I was never really introduced to writing as a form of expression or art. But I wanted to.
I always had this idea I would write a book. That one day I would keep a diary (or dairy as I first named my handmade school project) that devastated me and further stunted my embarkment upon this desire of mine.
When I did start a diary I had no idea what I wanted to write. I knew I wanted to record my life. To have an account of all these experiences, questions, feelings, notions and things I noticed that no one but me seemed to care about. But when I started one all I could muster were the words I thought my friends would want me to write about Brian Davies and Paul Charlton. Or the fear my mother would find and the knowing she would most definitely read it. And I would forget I had started one and miss the opportunity to write again the next day.
My diary always ended with little of interest and a sense of disappointed and failure in myself.
But the words were still there. The questions, the beauty, the fears all unexpressed and contained, kept in the vault of my memory of mind knowing that one day as an adult I would write them out. My adulthood came and I never did. I was too busy. It wasn't what grown ups did. Until I killed myself and failed at that too.
When I woke as a shaken soul I had to make a change and I made a pretty radical one. I decided to commit to my spirituality, heal, give meaning and explore these ideas and questions I held as a child bu ignored and rejected after trauma.
Once I started to go to spiritual healing words became to come to me sometimes. In the form of poetry. Untrained, untamed and without editing. I started to write them down. Over time my journaling developed and I became more skilled with words, I developed my language, consider semantics, became the author I had wanted to be as a small child stifled by my lack of growth.
Now I write and publish often. Pretty much every day. I journal or create media content, blogs, books and sometimes the poetry comes. It flows to me and through me like a channel. I am the muse and the artist.
Last night was one of those nights. When words began to come and I could not settle for writing them. And today became the day I would publish them in this book.
The Girl Who Never Got Written is my gift to the little girl that always wondered what words could mean. Who was curious if expression could make magic or indeed a difference. It is a book I am sharing to meet the child in you perhaps that wondered the same.I am a conscious creator and I express my ideas, designs and understanding of nature and our natural systems through different forms of expression.
Following an organic exploration I have uncovered natural, holistic solutions to many of our man made problems. My books express these discoveries and present the understandings I have gained in different forms of media. From self help to mutual support and relationships to exploring the patterns and energetic dynamics of humanity through story form.
I have a particular interest in trauma, evolution and our human nature as spiritual beings connected through physicality and the reproductive nature of life.
My goal is to express ways of healing and creating more effective, holistic, life-affirming systems that benefit individuals, humanity and our relationship with nature.