Safe: Taking back your Emotional House.

By Debra Hearn

I looked back at the girl that got left behind so, so many years ago.

The one who curled up, and hid inside the person who just kept getting older and older.
The little girl who was abused- physically, emotionally, and sexually. The little girl who wanted to love everyone SOO much, and DID... even though nobody loved her back.
The little girl who believed the world could be a beautiful place, but decided, maybe that was just a lie she told herself.
I left her behind, because the trauma I was going through was too much for me to focus on caring about myself.

Little kids stop liking themselves when they are mistreated.

So, I left her there... she was frozen in time for 40 years. Alone, and still waiting to be loved.

I heard her crying out to me, everyday; I drowned her out with alcohol and cigarettes- sex, and bad decisions that kept my mind busy.
But, I had kids, and I realized that by blocking "her" out, I was blocking them out, too.

And I started to think about how much I actually missed "her". But, the only way to her was through a field of thorns, and sadness, and every emotion I've ever felt, good and bad... but, I had to.

I couldn't finish my life, or even love my children the way the deserved, knowing I left another behind to die alone.

So, I did... and I scraped against every emotional thorn I had ever felt. It hurt, and they cut me open... and I bled.
But, every cut was the pain of facing those demons, and letting them go.

Until, one day... I found her.

I found her in that same house, in that same bedroom, crying in that same spot... and I picked her up, and I hugged her, and told her everything was going to be ok.

I told her she would never be alone again. And, I brought her back with me.

And, now I'm whole. I'm whole because SHE is whole.

Everyone deserves to feel at home in their own mind. Everyone deserves to feel loved, especially by themselves.

You can do this.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B09DN194X2
• ISBN13: 9798467129105
• Release Date: August 2021
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 212 Pages
• Weight: 0.64 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.5" x 6.0" x 9.0"