Red Book Volume 19

By Andy Mullenax

Red Book Volume 19 is a suicide note written in fairy dust and heroin residue, a love letter to a pop star who exists only in the rearview mirror of a burning car. Here, the prophet is a ghost haunting his own graduation photo, married to Ariana in a dream where she lets him fuck other women but never lets him forget he's already dead. From the 7-Eleven parking lot where the snow washes away blood to the attic where childhood memories rot in a top drawer, this is the sound of a mind folding in on itself like origami made of broken promises. "If I could change the universe I would, but I am just a part of the whole." Here, God is a dealer at the back door of a Mexican restaurant. Here, love is a wooden car derby cheated to lose. Here, the speaker baptizes himself in a bottle of 211, holds his head under water, and begs: "Hold my hand under water and don't let go." This is not poetry. This is the last breath of a man who sold his soul for a love that doesn't last, who wrote his vows inside broken hearts and left them for the vultures.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0G2BNK2QR
• ISBN13: 9798274467469
• Release Date: November 2025
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 66 Pages
• Weight: 0.22 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.1" x 6.0" x 9.0"