Not about him: Love didn´t arrive - I did.

By Charlie Allen

A two-perspective journey through longing, overthinking, heartbreak - and the radical act of choosing yourself.

"Crush Culture: Rehearsing Love in Your Dreams " is the narrative: everything as I remember it, after it happened.
"Not about him" series are the heartbeat: the words I wrote while I was still in the middle of the storm.

This isn't a love story.
It's a self-story - told from the inside and the after.

Not the aftermath. The during. Part 4

This is the part where the heart breaks - and finally opens.

The crush has burned out, but the warmth remains.

The lesson still echoes, but now it sounds like truth.

This book lives in the in-between - between falling apart and falling back into yourself.

It's the moment you realize that closure doesn't come from them; it comes from you.

Here, I write about boundaries and balance - about loving deeply without losing myself, about friendship before romance, about what it means to stay soft and still stay true.

Because love isn't just something that happens to you.

It's something you learn to hold - gently, wisely, fully awake.

These pages are where I let the crash happen.

Where I let it all fall apart - so something real can grow.

Love didn't arrive.

I did.

He was the lesson.

I am the change.

Here is Part 5: I found the Girl I was missing

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0FYHYGSDJ
• ISBN13: 9798272277770
• Release Date: November 2025
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 214 Pages
• Weight: 0.64 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.5" x 6.0" x 9.0"