Not about him: I found the girl I was missing

By Charlie Allen

A two-perspective journey through longing, overthinking, heartbreak - and the radical act of choosing yourself.

"Crush Culture: Rehearsing Love in Your Dreams " is the narrative: everything as I remember it, after it happened.
"Not about him" series are the heartbeat: the words I wrote while I was still in the middle of the storm.

This isn't a love story.
It's a self-story - told from the inside and the after.

Not the aftermath. The during. Part 5

This is where the story breaks open.

Where love meets truth.

Where betrayal stings and clarity finally arrives.

This part is about losing what you thought you needed - and realizing what was really missing was you.

It's about the ache of almost, the courage to confront, and the quiet strength it takes to let go with dignity.

It's about standing in front of someone you wanted so deeply and hearing no - and learning that rejection isn't the end of love, but the beginning of self-respect.

Here, I ask the hard questions:

Can happiness built on someone else's pain ever be real?

Can love still exist after truth has been spoken?

Can I still stay soft, even when my heart is breaking?

This is not the fairytale chapter - this is the real one.

Where the heart breaks, but also rebuilds.

Where the girl I was missing finally comes home - to me.

Because the moment I stopped chasing love,

I found myself.

Loving the series
Read Part 6: This story is mine now.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0FYPLLKK8
• ISBN13: 9798272370440
• Release Date: November 2025
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 172 Pages
• Weight: 0.52 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.4" x 6.0" x 9.0"