Loving the Son of Ham

By Maria Kotze

This gripping memoir takes you on a journey with a young white girl born in 1967 in Apartheid South Africa. Having grown up on a steady mix of racism, infused with fear-based religion in a male dominated society, young Maria finds herself on a tightrope trying to balance her rebellious feelings against her oppressive husband with her strong sense of duty and religion. When her attempts to save her marriage turn out to be futile, she commits the unforgivable sin of divorcing her husband. At the same, time she embarks on a journey of discovering the other side, the lives of Black people in South Africa, that has been hidden by the state-controlled media and propagandist politicians. At the height of Apartheid in the early 1990s she falls in love with a Black man while living in a small right-wing town. She soon finds herself the object of persecution by a band of white supremacists, which culminates in a brutal rape. She spends years trying to recover and to make sense of her conflicted feelings. She is torn between the convictions that she was brought up in and her own intuition. Her journey takes her through the psychiatric ward of a hospital where she is treated for depression and PTSD and on an eleven-year-long stay in distant countries where she loses her convictions and finds herself. Upon her return to her home country she is disillusioned with the state of the economy, xenophobia and persistent racism. However, she expresses her hope that young people will persevere and grasp the opportunities that their parents never had.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B08HJ5385V
• ISBN13: 9798682622733
• Release Date: September 2020
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 220 Pages
• Weight: 0.66 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.5" x 6.0" x 9.0"