Load Bearing

By: Allen, Shawn P. O.

A Detective. A Dead Father. A Decision That Can't Be Undone.

Detective Decker has spent his career building walls. Thirty-seven narcotics arrests in fourteen months. A close rate above ninety percent. A reputation for thinking like an operator, not a badge-chaser. He built himself carefully, deliberately, out of everything he refused to become. And at the center of that construction, never spoken, never fully examined, is a man named Marcus Decker - his father. An addict. Dead at thirty-nine. Consumed by the same supply chain Decker has spent his adult life dismantling one arrest at a time.

Now the DEA wants to hand him the top of that chain.

Load Bearing is a taut, literary crime thriller about identity, grief, and the dangerous distance between justice and vengeance - set in the gleaming, morally complex city of Meridian, where money and crime have been woven together so tightly that pulling one thread risks unraveling everything.

The Mission

Deputy Director Hal Morrow needs someone who can think, climb, and disappear. The target is Anton Galloway - silver-haired, expensively suited, and so thoroughly insulated by fifteen years of elegant financial architecture that no federal approach has ever touched him. Take him down, the structure falls. But getting to Galloway means going deep - past the street level, past the mid-tier operators, into the rooms where real decisions are made.

The cover is Raymond Cole. Ex-cop. Forced out under internal affairs. A man with debts, grievances, and principles that the cost of maintaining has finally exceeded. It's a convincing story. Parts of it are true.

Decker has eighteen months. He says yes before he fully understands why.

The Cost

The best undercover officers know that identity isn't a costume - it's a process. You don't put on Raymond Cole. You let Decker recede until Cole is what's left. Every relationship built on a lie is load-bearing. Every moment of trust earned under a false name adds weight. Remove it carelessly and everything comes down.

His handler, Agent Carla Tusk, is watchful, precise, and not entirely warm. She's done fieldwork and not entirely come back from it. Her first rule: if compromised, get yourself clear. Not the evidence. Not the objective. Yourself.

Decker tells her he understands. She isn't sure he means it. She's probably right.

The Truth Underneath

Morrow chose Decker because of his record. That's what he said. What he also said - plainly, without apology - is that Marcus Decker's heroin moved through a precursor to the network they're now dismantling. That Decker has spent twenty years fighting the supply chain that contributed to his father's death. And that this is the top of that chain.

Decker told himself the reason he said yes was the work. The justice of it.

Sitting in October kitchen light the morning after, he gave himself an honest accounting.

The reason had his father's face on it.

Perfect For Readers Who Love:

Literary crime fiction with psychological depthUndercover detective thrillers with moral complexityCharacter-driven noir in the tradition of The Wire and True DetectiveStories about grief, fathers, and the things men build to survive themFans of Don Winslow, Dennis Lehane, and Tana French

The badge is off. The lies are on. And the mission is personal in ways even Decker won't fully admit.

Some structures are load-bearing. You don't know which ones until you start pulling them apart.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0GZKG3B8G
• ISBN13: 9798232367381
• Release Date: June 2026
• Publisher: Allen Publishing House
• Length: 200 Pages
• Weight: 0.52 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.5" x 5.5" x 8.5"