Living Beyond Suicide's Moment After

By Jim Atkisson

On the evening of January 24 1986, I was a 16 year old teenager. I was alone in the woods with a rifle, and I intended to use it. I was determined to follow my suicide plan to its final, resolute moment.I didn't arrive at that place overnight. I surrendered my destiny to suicide on a summer afternoon, and as the sultry days turned into cold winter's nights, the more I believed suicide was the only hope for me. I thought this is what I wanted as I loaded the rifle, aimed it at my heart, and pulled the trigger.After I pulled the trigger and I was in the midst of that moment after...I knew I had made a mistake.Nothing could have prepared me for the consequences of the moment after.Immediately during the moment after, I wanted 2 things but it was a 3rd desire that would change the course of my life. I wanted to breathe freely again. I took breathing for granted. I wanted to see the sun one more time. The sun was setting during the moment after, and I knew I would never see it again.I wanted my life back, but it was too late. Once a person enters suicide's moment after, it's often rare they get to walk away from it with their life. Those are the consequences of suicide. These are the consequences I never considered.Fate was kind to me on that day. I missed my left heart wall by ? of an inch, but I still needed to escape the isolation of the woods and crawl towards help. I'm living beyond suicide's moment after because of that 3rd desire, and an intervention from heaven.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: 1502457091
• ISBN13: 9781502457097
• Release Date: September 2014
• Publisher: CreateSpace Independent Publishing Platform
• Length: 226 Pages
• Weight: 0.89 lbs.
• Dimensions: 9.0" x 0.5" x 6.0"