It starts with a knock at the door. That is the beginning of the nightmare. The shock of the moment scrambles all of your senses and you can't think. I lost my husband last year but the worst was my son 10 years. Both deaths had some things that were similar but losing a child and a spouse were very different. After dealing with the hundreds of details that comes with any death you will come to a point where you ask yourself what do I want do with...