I've Killed Some Versions of Myself to Be This Calm

By Fransesco Malila

What if everything you're doing to improve yourself is actually what's killing you?

At 43, Fransesco Malila had it all-thriving career, beautiful family, respected position in his Tanzanian community. He was also dying inside, exhausted from maintaining false versions of himself.

Then came the morning he couldn't move. Paralysed by the weight of his own performances, Francesco faced a terrifying choice: continue the slow death of false selves, or kill them first.

This isn't another self-help book. It's a map through actual transformation.

With brutal honesty and profound wisdom, Fransesco documents the conscious "killing" of his five false selves:

- The People-Pleaser who couldn't say no

- The Perfectionist who couldn't rest

- The Victim who couldn't heal

- The Impostor who couldn't stop performing

- The Busy Addict who couldn't be still

But this book goes deeper than a personal story. Fransesco maps the entire territory of transformation:

✓ How to recognise what needs to die

✓ Why we fight to keep what's killing us

✓ Tools that actually reach where surface solutions can't

✓ The terrifying void between false and true

✓ The unexpected calm that emerges when you stop performing

Raw. Honest. Transformative.

This book includes:

- 12 in-depth chapters of personal journey and practical wisdom

- Specific exercises and tools for transformation

- Letters to false selves showing how to release them

- The truth about "the void" no other book discusses

- A complete guide from exhaustion to authenticity

Perfect for readers who:

- Feel exhausted from being someone they're not

- Sense something needs to change but can't identify what

- Are ready for deeper work than surface self-help

- Want genuine calm, not temporary peace

- Loved "Untamed," "The Body Keeps the Score," or "When Things Fall Apart"

From Tanzania to the world-this is transformation without the sugar-coating.

Your false selves are killing you softly.

Isn't it time you returned the favour?

Scroll up and click "Buy Now" to begin your journey from false to true.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0G7L2F2Z7
• ISBN13: 9798232299859
• Release Date: December 2025
• Publisher: Fransesco Malila
• Length: 206 Pages
• Weight: 0.54 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.5" x 5.5" x 8.5"