Tes, I've been counting. What's when I got the 5ournal also the same night that he took away my last string of hope. I would have been 6 months and 4 weeks, his best friend secretly gave me the journal to document my experience for my baby to have later. I like to think it was a girl. Fretty little chocolate girl with his great completion and my curly hair assuming I had made it to Bebruary.