if I don't self immolate will I ever be understood?

By Andrw Fx

Certain in the wisdom in the destruction of everything, God is a teenager in love. With needles. With watching the Universe through the peephole of a wild-eyed boy. With a pair of heartbreaking wings and voice gloved in cold sweat and mercury tenderness. God stands by the bed holding out their shaking panic, secretly burning a double millennia old promise to be unseen and unheard: in remission and in recovery.

In their follow up to every thing andrw fx meditates with agonizing fear, suicide, disassociation, discomfort, closure, SSRI-induced half-realities, sycophantic blood cults, augury, ego death, heartache, queerness, and deep platonic love.

These 13 stories are a funeral parade of intense emotion led by a cast of award-winning absentee gods, feral cats, vulcans, mutant chicken bois, aliens, dead birds, dust particles, humanoids, and Harold Ramis.

If I don't self immolate will I ever be understood? grapples with the probity of reality and washes in the waters of the totally absurd.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0BYBHDNQ2
• ISBN13: 9798985354720
• Release Date: July 2023
• Publisher: Primary Process Archive
• Length: 116 Pages
• Weight: 0.26 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.3" x 5.0" x 7.0"