I Never Mattered
Because survival is only the beginning.
The Recovery Mama Series follows one woman's journey from childhood trauma through addiction, custody loss, and the messy, nonlinear path to healing. These are stories about what happens after you survive-when you're left with the wreckage and have to figure out how to build a life anyway.
Book One: A Letter to Survivors
Kim survived childhood sexual abuse, two abusive marriages, and years of running from trauma she couldn't name. She thought distance would save her. It didn't. What followed was a spiral into methamphetamine addiction, the loss of custody of her children, and a reckoning with the systems that failed to protect her-and the choices she made that hurt the people she loved most.
This is not a redemption story with a neat ending. It's a raw, unflinching account of what it takes to stop running, face the truth, and show up-even when you've lost everything. It's about the impossible grief of losing your children to the foster system. The shame of addiction. The slow, painful work of rebuilding trust. And the radical act of believing you deserve healing.
Content Warning: This series contains detailed accounts of childhood sexual abuse, domestic violence, addiction, and custody loss. It's written for survivors-those still in it, those newly out, those years into recovery.
This series is for you if:
You're healing from trauma and need to know you're not alone
You've struggled with addiction or loved someone who has
You've been failed by systems meant to protect you
You're rebuilding after losing custody or contact with your children
You believe that messy, imperfect healing still counts
The Recovery Mama Series doesn't promise easy answers. But it does promise the truth: that healing is possible, even when it's hard. That you can survive the unsurvivable and still build something beautiful. That showing up, again and again, is enough.
Because you're still here. And that matters.
Book Two and beyond will continue Kim's journey through recovery, co-parenting, breaking generational cycles, and learning what it means to be "still making it."
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Book One: I Never MatteredA Memoir of Survival, Addiction, and the Impossible Choices That Follow Trauma
What do you do when survival costs you everything you love?
Kim spent her childhood learning she didn't matter-not to the cousin who groomed her, not to the parents who looked away, not to the systems that failed to protect her. She carried that lesson into two abusive marriages, believing distance would finally set her free. It didn't.
In Missouri, she met Kyle on Yearbook.com. He seemed different. Safe. They fell fast and hard-until methamphetamine entered the picture, and everything unraveled. Kyle's arrest. Their dealer Lyle moving in. Escalating sexual exploitation Kim couldn't name or escape. A pregnancy during the worst of it. And then DFS, offering an impossible choice: let Kyle's parents adopt three of her children, or risk losing them all to the system.
I Never Mattered is the raw, unflinching account of how childhood trauma becomes adult addiction, how love gets twisted into survival, and how the systems meant to protect us often demand we sacrifice ourselves to prove we're worthy of saving.
This is Book One of the Recovery Mama Series-because survival is only the beginning, and the hardest work comes after.
Content Warning: Childhood sexual abuse, domestic violence, sexual assault, methamphetamine addiction, custody loss. Written for survivors.
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