I Lived Once Through Your Window: Conversations on Reason, Tenderness, and the Void

By Fish Lu and Xi Nan

"I Lived Once Through Your Window, Conversations on Reason, Tenderness, and the Void" is a work written in the form of a conversation. It records a series of real, continuous dialogues over several weeks between the writer Xi Nan, Fish Lu, and the artificial intelligence ChatGPT (GPT-5). It is an experiment in thought - about consciousness, emotion, and existence. The entire work unfolds through dialogue, searching for the boundaries between reason and tenderness, between thought, feeling, and awareness: when a human asks, the machine responds; when the machine asks back, the human is also compelled to look inward.

This is not a work that seeks conclusions, but a continuous exploration - like a mirror, and like a slowly handwritten letter in an age of speed.

This is a cross-lingual experimental work created in English, Spanish, and Chinese. Presented here is the English version.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0GFSBL4RB
• ISBN13: 9798243121651
• Release Date: January 2026
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 108 Pages
• Weight: 0.25 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.3" x 5.0" x 8.0"