I Can't Find God

By Dr. C.S. Harris PhD

I Can't Find God is a spiritual testimony for the disillusioned seeker - the one who prayed, believed, followed the rules, and still ended up empty. This book begins in the ache of absence, in the honest cry of a soul that has looked for God everywhere and come up feeling abandoned. In churches that promised salvation but delivered shame. In traditions that offered answers but demanded silence. In rituals that felt holy once, then hollow. It gives voice to the question so many are afraid to ask: If God is real, why do I feel so alone?

Through personal reflection, cultural critique, and sacred insight, this volume explores how faith fractures when it is built on fear, performance, and external authority. It examines how trauma, loss, unanswered prayers, religious hypocrisy, and spiritual abuse leave people disconnected not just from God, but from themselves. The book names the grief of losing the God you were taught - and honors the heartbreak that comes with outgrowing borrowed beliefs.

As the journey unfolds, I Can't Find God gently shifts the seeker away from chasing God in buildings, books, leaders, and labels, and toward the forgotten inner altar. It teaches that the feeling of absence is not proof of God's disappearance, but an invitation to a deeper kind of knowing. The reader is guided to see that what they have been searching for outwardly has always been whispering from within - in intuition, breath, conscience, creativity, love, and the quiet voice beneath the noise.

This book does not offer easy answers or religious certainty. Instead, it offers remembrance. It restores the ancient truth that God is not a distant ruler to be reached, but a living presence to be realized - moving through our pain, our questions, and our becoming. The seeker learns that losing God as an external figure is often the first step toward finding God as an internal reality.

By the end, I Can't Find God becomes a revelation:
God was never missing.
God was waiting - in the depths of the self, in the sacred breath, in the unbroken spark that no system could touch.

It is a book for those who have walked away from faith, for those afraid they've lost it, and for those ready to discover that the divine was never outside them at all.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0GBGBH36G
• ISBN13: 9798279272006
• Release Date: December 2025
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 136 Pages
• Weight: 0.42 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.3" x 6.0" x 9.0"