Holding My Breath: The Two Testaments of Chuck Billy

By Chuck Billy

Holding My Breath: The Two Testaments of Chuck Billy is the raw, inspiring memoir of Testament's legendary frontman, chronicling his stubborn roots in a Native American and Mexican-American family, his rise through the explosive Bay Area thrash metal scene, and his defiant battle against cancer--complete with spiritual healings, the iconic Thrash of the Titans benefit that revived the genre, and the unbreakable will that turned a near-death diagnosis into a triumphant second act of life, music, and brotherhood.

From the relentless stages of Bay Area thrash metal to the brink of death and back, Holding My Breath: The Two Testaments of Chuck Billy is the unflinching memoir of Testament's iconic frontman. Raised in a resilient Native American and Mexican-American family, Chuck Billy forged his path through rebellion, raw talent, and unbreakable stubbornness--becoming the powerful voice behind one of thrash's most enduring bands. But at thirty-eight, a devastating cancer diagnosis threatened to silence him forever. With the fierce support of the metal community--including the legendary Thrash of the Titans benefit that rallied old rivals and reignited brotherhood--Chuck faced grueling treatments, profound spiritual journeys, and the fight of his life.

This is the story of a man who refused to let go, discovering that true strength comes not just from holding your breath until the world bends, but from learning to breathe again--stronger, wiser, and surrounded by family, both blood and chosen. A raw testament to survival, music, and the unbreakable bonds that define a life in metal.

• Format: Hardcover
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0GVZ4TFVM
• ISBN13: 9798895657690
• Release Date: November 2026
• Publisher: Permuted Press
• Length: 224 Pages