God Is In the Doubt: memoir on keeping faith through loss

By David A. Lloyd

Book Overview

David A. Lloyd had been in church since before he was born. He had never once questioned whether God existed. It was a given.

Then came years of infertility, a miscarriage, four failed adoption matches, a six month court battle to keep the daughter they finally adopted, an unexpected second pregnancy that ended in a second miscarriage, the surgeries that followed it, and a fire that destroyed the business he was building. His closest friends called it the Year of Evil.

Forty years of belief turned into doubt.

What he did next is what makes this book unlike other books about faith and loss. He did not pray harder or wait for the feeling to come back. He is a mathematician, so he went looking for proof. It took roughly three years. A year to be ready to look, another to find a book that did not simply assume the answer, and most of a third running the probabilities himself, until he understood that every available conclusion, including the one that says there is no God, requires faith in something.

God Is In the Doubt is for the believer whose faith is failing and who has been told that the failing is the problem. It does not promise that the questions resolve. His son Caleb died by suicide in 2018 at twenty-one, and they did not. It argues that doubt is not the enemy of faith but the place where God does His work, and that if there were proof, it would be mathematics rather than faith.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: 1737147106
• ISBN13: 9781737147107
• Release Date: April 2021
• Publisher: Touch: Handcrafted Services, Inc.
• Length: 170 Pages
• Weight: 0.45 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.4" x 5.5" x 8.5"