From Panic to Empowerment: How to embrace an angel when you expected a baby

By Stephanie E. Reid

An IVF pregnancy loss memoir for women grieving miscarriage, infant loss, or the death of a baby.

Losing a baby-through miscarriage, IVF loss, or infant death-is a life-altering experience that shatters expectations, identity, and faith in the future. From Panic to Empowerment is a raw, deeply personal memoir written for women who have walked this painful path and are searching for meaning, healing, and understanding after loss.

In this intimate account, Dr. Stephanie E. Reid shares her journey of conceiving at age 47 using her own eggs through IVF, giving birth, and experiencing the devastating loss of her baby just nine hours later. What follows is not a clinical grief guide, but a courageous, unfiltered story of infertility, medical intensity, faith, intimacy, and heartbreak-told with honesty, humor, and reverence.

Readers are invited behind the scenes of the IVF process-the injections, pills, emotional swings, secrecy, relationship strain, and moments no one prepares you for. Nothing is sanitized. You may laugh through tears, gasp in disbelief, or whisper, "I can't believe she said that." Because grief is messy, personal, and deeply human.

More than a story of loss, this book offers a pathway through grief. Dr. Stephanie reframes pregnancy and infant loss not as something to "get over," but as something sacred to integrate. She introduces the concept of becoming an angel mother-a woman chosen to carry a soul whose life was brief but eternally meaningful. The spirit never dies, and neither does love.

Written for women navigating miscarriage, IVF failure, neonatal loss, stillbirth, or unexplained infertility, this memoir validates emotions that often go unspoken-anger, guilt, longing, faith, doubt, and profound love. It gently guides readers toward acceptance, self-compassion, and the possibility of joy again.

This book is for you if:

You have lost a baby and feel unseen or misunderstood

You are grieving after IVF or infertility

You are searching for spiritual meaning after pregnancy loss

You want to honor your baby's life while healing your heart

Your tears of sorrow may become tears of reverence.
Your grief does not erase your strength.
You were chosen-and your story still matters.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: 1983716324
• ISBN13: 9781983716324
• Release Date: January 2018
• Publisher: Createspace Independent Publishing Platform
• Length: 138 Pages
• Weight: 0.43 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.3" x 6.0" x 9.0"