I will spend my thirties resolving my f**k ups, learning restraint, and saying goodbye to late-night escapades at a moment's notice. It will be the hardest decade of my life. It's as though I'm being pulled without a purpose. I don't know who I am or whether I've learned anything at all over the past thirty years. No more living life on the edge for me, or knowingly choosing the wrong men. Although, I have three on my roster with special skill sets, organized on my phone, and assigned ringtones to make my quiet chaos manageable. I still found myself on a freight train barreling into darkness. I use to think I was the hero of my story, but I quickly realized the DRAGON I was trying to slay, was me. This is me not giving a f**k at a time I needed to grow up. I'm the thirty-three-year-old sculpted man's dream. I'm Ms. Zo? Gray-Love. This is my story. My life. And I'm living it, Unapologetically!