Down To My Destiny

By Shanta Denise Gilliard

I wrote this story for those who are going through some knock down times too. Do not celebrate the fact that you do not have a perfect story but the fact that you have one. "I was down for so long that I'd forgotten that I had legs to get up!" I celebrated the bad so much that it made me bitter to now becoming better. It may have knocked you down but it did not knock you out! I would testify that; it was at the bitter bottom that I found my blessings to be better. It would take me falling down right into my destiny. I read a post once that said; Do not judge my story on the part that you walked in on. So, stop the judgment period! Everyone has a story and I wanted to share mines because writing and reading took me places in my imagination that caused me to escape hard times. When reading this book, I hope that it will take you to a place of truth that would cause you to get up each time you fall. So many people do not know what a person may be going through and their actions towards someone good or bad, could help someone or hurt a person's situation. I have heard many times people saying, "that you maybe in a storm currently, coming out of one, or going into one. It is true things make us feel picked on or have the feeling of it being personal. I grew tired of hearing about these perfect fairytales and the born rich stories. So, I wanted to share a real story, of experiences that so many of us go through or knew someone who may even went through similar things in secret. So many times, I felt like it was personal and I screamed many times for God to help me. I encourage you not to down the downs its only written as part of your destiny. It's not easily said then done. I remember when facing so many blows, even in the middle of them unfolding in tears, feelings of the internal pain of problems. I would still say, as I moved forward carrying it, under my breath. "I'm going through this for someone else!" I could express myself better on paper than I could vocally because I was holding so much in. So, when I started having hard times in my marriage earlier on, I started writing out my feelings ever since then. A lot of things in my life that transpired I wrote, read and even prayed myself through to coping ever since I was young. I didn't turn to drugs or drinking but the church was a coping and breakthrough place for me. So; every time, ever since, I was a little girl, I was into God! The hardest part was expressing myself on paper when I was still experiencing those things and going through them. I could not even express enough or put into words the places that were, in my head daily, as moved about my life with a smile. One let down after the next never seeming to get a break. I guess this would be for me to get to this final destination of peace, self-love and finally doing things I desire for myself. Changing my mind from what I know and know its harder than the math that I hate. Truly God will restore the years that the locust and cankerworm has eaten you will eat in plenty and be satisfied.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B091F3MS6V
• ISBN13: 9798721993695
• Release Date: March 2021
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 48 Pages
• Weight: 0.23 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.1" x 6.0" x 9.0"