Decided not to Die

By Anthony Udasco

I've been writing this book for ten years, and I still don't know what the hell it is. It's not a memoir because I'm not important enough for that. It's not a self-help book because I don't have any answers. It's just my thoughts, between a front and back cover, from someone who spent the better part of his life feeling like a Martian among humans, and decided one night to write it all down instead of doing something worse. If you find something in here you relate to, good. If you don't, that's fine too. I wrote it anyway.

This is not the book I planned to write. The one I planned was funnier. This one got away from me somewhere around the second glass of Jack and never really came back. What you're holding is ten years of sleepless nights, bad decisions, girls I loved and lost and loved wrong, a medical condition I'll probably never fully say out loud, and the quiet decision I made over and over again, in the dark, alone, to still be here. Make of that what you will.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0GYW7CFKP
• ISBN13: 9798259040274
• Release Date: April 2026
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 106 Pages
• Weight: 0.34 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.2" x 6.0" x 9.0"