I never thought Id be both the most envied and most hated
woman in this precinct. I mean, the latter honestly shouldn't surprise me, but I never expected to be envied by anyone - especially not envied and hated at the same time.
There are the officers who clap me on the back and look at me with the eyes that say they wish they were in my shoes - that they were on this case. And then there are the guys whose stares stick little needles into my skin. They hate that I'm co-lead on the case. Hell, they might even be jealous too, but the hate is palpable. I let it roll off my shoulders. For the most part.
But there's some part of me that wants to impress the boys' club, and I hate that.
So, I suck it up. And sometimes suck down a shot or two after my shift.