Becoming Me

By Evie Benton

I wrote this book to understand who I am.

I was adopted before I was old enough to make sense of what was happening. What I carried instead were feelings I couldn't explain, reactions that felt bigger than the moment, and a constant sense that something about me didn't quite fit. I grew up knowing I had a past, but not knowing how to access it.

This book is my attempt to trace that missing beginning.

Through experiences of care, adoption, and growing up in a body shaped by early trauma, I explore what it's like to live with gaps in your own history. I write about survival, about learning how to be who people needed me to be, and about the quiet ways trauma shows up long after the event itself has passed. I write about anxiety, self-destructive coping, and the confusion of feeling deeply affected by things you cannot fully remember.

As an adult, therapy forced me to slow down and look back - not to relive what happened, but to finally acknowledge it. This book follows that process: the discomfort, the resistance, the grief, and the gradual understanding that my reactions were never random. They were responses to a story my body remembered long before my mind could.

This is not a story of perfect healing or clear answers. It is a story of learning how to live with unanswered questions, how to hold compassion for the child I was, and how to begin forming an identity that belongs to me. Writing this was not about blame or resolution - it was about truth.

I wrote this book for adoptees, trauma survivors, and anyone who has ever felt disconnected from their own story. Most of all, I wrote it to say this: even if your beginning is unclear, your story is still valid - and you are allowed to claim it.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0GGBMV3T7
• ISBN13: 9798243328128
• Release Date: January 2026
• Publisher: Independently published
• Length: 76 Pages
• Weight: 0.26 lbs.
• Dimensions: 9.0" x 0.2" x 6.0"