A Middle Aged Kept Woman: The avoidant genius' dream relationship

By Feminine Feral Fabulous

At 46, I was in New York City, a researcher living a dream. At an Upper East Side party, feeling out of place, I met him. He was older, wealthy, exuding quiet power. We connected, and a whirlwind relationship began.

Lavish dinners, whispered compliments, and orchestrated encounters became my new normal. He showered me with gifts, even a surgery, and introduced me to a life of privilege. But it came at a cost: absolute control, discretion, and emotional detachment.

He was a paradox, brilliant yet anxious, building systems to avoid pain. He offered financial security in place of intimacy, pushing me to explore the world yet keeping me tethered to his rules.

His death, a deliberate act disguised as an accident, shattered my reality. The money became a reminder of what was lost.

I sought refuge in travel, reclaiming my narrative. Each journey was a testament to my resilience. Yet, I still yearn for a love that transcends the transactional.

I am a woman who has loved and lost, danced with shadows, and embraced the light. I am a traveler, a survivor, still searching for the elusive balance between independence and intimacy.

• Format: Paperback
• Language: English
• ISBN: B0F1DLPL8J
• ISBN13: 9798313766249
• Release Date: March 2025
• Publisher: Independently Published
• Length: 58 Pages
• Weight: 0.20 lbs.
• Dimensions: 0.1" x 6.0" x 9.0"