Yeah. I'm absolutely terrified at the implications of what my doctrine and experiences suggest. It will be painful obedience to publish this entry- "Because you're afraid it's not real. And if it is real, you're afraid that you'll sound boastful." There it is; as real and raw as I can be. I'm scared. I'm scared of ridicule and rejection. Hopefully the reader has been following my writings in real time over the last couple years because I fear that...