Excerpts from "I feel my bones aching, it must be the age thing. Or maybe, punishment from heaven. Today, more mature, I recognize that I have made many families suffer. I committed many atrocities while I was commander of the First Military Brigade of Rio Grande do Sul. Perhaps it was the result of the purest and most absolute loneliness. The longing for my relatives, who all stayed in Rio de Janeiro, where I was born, brought me painful suffering...